Remembering mom

January 9, 2009 12:52:34 PM PST
I'm not sure where the time went. Oh, I can write it all down and list the big events. Two children, a move to New York City, finding a home at ABC for more than 16 years, so many friends, so many huge news stories.

But when it comes to my mother's death, 20 years ago today, it still feels like it happened yesterday. I mean, I can remember everything so clearly: the diagnosis of lung cancer at the age of 61, the fast spiral downhill, her last Thanksgiving and her last Christmas/Hanukah and then her last New Year's.

My mom and I left behind few if any unresolved issues, so this hasn't been a tortured 20 years, although I miss her. Every day.

Those of you who have experienced this kind of loss know the feeling so well -- but it's like a wound that never really heals. The scar tissue forms, but the covering isn't total. Not by a long shot.

This morning, at sunrise, my two kids and I struck three matches, and each of us held our flame to light a candle. And we thought of Darlene Ritter.

We all have back stories. Today, that's mine.

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